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that I would be good even if I did nothing
that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down
that I would be good if I got and stayed sick
that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt
that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth
that I would be great if I was no longer queen
that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you

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suka banget ma lagu ini..alanis morrisette...

..nanonano..

uda lama gak nge-blog..jadi banyak yang pengen ditulis..tapi bingung maw mulai dari mana..
...
kenapa ya, semakin aku pengen ngilangin rasa itu,,
kok bayangannya makin sulit hilang.
akhir-akhir ini malah sering banget kebayang hal-hal itu.
semua kejadian yang seharusnya tersimpan rapi di memori otakku,
dan berusaha untuk kuhapus..
satu persatu muncul, dan hampir mengacaukan benteng pertahanan yang uda kubuat..
,,nggak gampang ya untuk melupakan sesuatu,,seseorang terutama..
butuh banyak kesabaran,,keikhlasan...

uda berapa lama ya,,
apa kamu pernah tau tentang semua yang aku alami, aku rasa..
i've been learning to live without you..but i miss you sometime,,
the more i know less i understand..

aku cuma pengen semua cepet selesai..
apa yang terjadi hari-hari kemarin uda cukup membuat berantakan,,
hate,,iri,,mad,,marah,,pait,,uda lah,,gak pengen lagi
pengen bisa senyum gak cuma di luar
tapi di dalem juga.

i love you..but i guess it's enough..
i have to learn how to love someone else..
but i dont know when,,

motivasi diri sendiri..
mmm..but i'm just human not superwoman
kadang kalo lagi drop..yaaah..cuma bisa diem
doing nothing..
like now..berusaha ngembaliin kekuatan
dengan nulis..untuk bisa jadi motivator..